So here I am actually making it to ay two of my blog. I never actually thought that I would make it two days in a row. Today is a strange day to write about being so good and yet not at the same time. Today started out crazy, but thanks to the AMAZING Luke I made it to the airport on time, despite the getting lost twice and stopping for gas along the way. Basiclly i had an adventure before it even turned 8:30 am.
When I finally made it to the airport I was greeted by security telling me due to my enourmous amount of bobby pins in my hair that I would either have to take them out or recieve a pat down. I decided to take the what i thought was the quickest route and take the pat down with courage. I made it though no problem with about 5 minutes to spare before my plane left without me.
One hour and 15 minutes later I arrived in sunny san diego and faced my reality of what my life is. And I was surprised by what I found, I was okay. I was happy and I got to spend the day with a wonderful man, and my best friend. I realized that my fear was for nothing. I was okay, he was okay, and we were okay. Of course I am still fearful of what the future will bring me but I know that I will have a good friend along the way, and that really cares despite the struggles we are about to go through.
One another note it is so wonderful to be home in a place so familiar and welcoming. I forgot how much I missed the smell of the ocean, the crazy traffic, the roar from the padres game, and the howls of coyotes coming from outside my window.
I am starting to realize its not only other people that define your life, but its also yourself who defines it. Im starting to see the beauty in this breakdown, and I think it will be okay.
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